StorY of the SoldieR...
It's kind of hard to explain all of the things that have happened to me over the past few weeks, but I will try. Here goes. To start off with, I killed a person for the first time in my life. I thought it would be real scary, and it was, at first. The thing was, it seemed so natural. Like I was meant to do it. And whenever I think about that time, or any of the other times, I really don't feel guilty or anything. They were just strangers, and didn't do anything to me directly, but like they say, "Innocence is Subjective."
Hah! I sound like I've been brainwashed by the Renewal Army or something. I haven't, but it's true... ultimately, everybody's guilty of something that hurts the planet. I've always been so angered about how humans treat their own surroundings.... it's like they get so wound up in themselves that they are blind to the fact that they are hurting themselves. I guess I'm a misanthrope, but something about the Army appealed to me. I've always had a bloodlust of sorts, and it suits me as a Soldier.
I 'joined' the Army about a month ago and I am currently on standby, like every other soldier at present. We are waiting for more forces to amass before we make a joint effort, so right now we are just doing random, individual things until the word comes. It's really interesting, actually, that we truly don't have a leader, or ranks, or anything. The members agree that powerlust is one of the abhorrent human traits that we aim to eliminate.
I'm classified as a 'chosen' soldier, because even before I heard of the Army I had thoughts that aligned with the Renewal Army's activities. All of the 'enlisted' soldiers of the Army are this way. The 'unchosen' are those individuals roaming our society that kill people, regardless of circumstance. A drunk driver is an unchosen soldier as soon as he kills someone, because he is bringing about the Renewal, even though he doesn't know it. Most of the people really don't believe that any entity 'chose' us to do this, but it's a handy term. A lot of what the Army does seems almost biblical, or supernatural, to people. Most of the things that scare people were actually meant to scare people. I'm with the Army philosophy; I believe in the end of the human race, but I don't believe that there will be a Second Coming, or opening of the gates of hell, or whatever. I think it's just going to be the last cries of a dying species.
Anyway, there is nothing much for me to do about anything now, except to spread the message, gather all my weapons together, and wait.